In Loving Memory...
Throughout a person's life, there are but few moments that we can pin point exactly that live with us every day after. Likewise, it is rare to encounter, in person or writing, a fellow human being whose words resonate so powerfully, so beautifully, that we can identify the sincerity even in the pauses between the words on paper or in speech. For me, Edward Said was such a person.
I stumbled upon his book "The Question of Palestine" when I was a sophmore in a hellish Sacramento high school. I'd never heard of him, and knew roughly of the history of the Palestinian cause, so I'm still not quite sure what drew me to it. I read that book like my life depended on it, searching every line, paragraph, and page for something I might have missed. I sat down and hand wrote a 20 page extra credit paper for my history class that I still keep in my stacks of paper hidden in various corners of my apartment. Edward Said was like my street lamp installed in a dark ally.
He lit many dark allies, drawing attention to the academy's Orientalist tradition and forcing the public and intelligencia to see, really see, the truth of the rights of Palestinians. He demanded the recognition of the human being and the universality of rights and dignity. He spoke of literature and poetry, war and peace, thought and transcendence, and, in the end, always spoke to the heart and mind of the human and the notion of universality. I haven't heard or read the word 'universality' since.
I was studying in Italy when my in-box was flooded with emails notifying me of his death. It must have been late afternoon or early evening when I sat down at the internet cafe, signed into my email account, and instantly broke down into tears. No one around me knew of him. I wore my kafiya that day, and was glad I took it with me. I should have hung a huge Palestinian flag out on top of the tower in the Piazza Del Campo.
Anyways, below is an homage to Edward Said (allah yar7ma)*, originally written in French in Le Monde. Overall, it's a lovely portrayal, but the last line is a little cheezy as first and last lines can be.
If there was a Said for every one of our countries, would the world be any different?
Salamat.
*God have mercy on him; Muslims say this when we state the name of someone who has passed away.
January 2005
HOMAGE TO EDWARD SAID
Counterpoint
by Mahmoud Darwish
NEW YORK. NOVEMBER. 5TH AVENUE.
Shards of light in a leaden sky.
In the shadows, I asked my foreign soul: is this city Babylon
or Sodom?
There, at the edge of an electric chasm sky high, I met
Edward thirty years ago.
The times were less impetuous.
Each said to the other:
If your past is your experience, make the future sense and
vision!
Let us move forward, towards our future, confident in
imagination's sincerity and the miracle of the grass.
I no longer remember whether we went to the cinema that
evening, but I heard old Indian braves call out to me: trust
neither the horse nor modernity.
No. No victim asks his executioner: if I were you and my
sword greater than my rose . . . would I have acted as you
have done?
That kind of question arouses the curiosity of the novelist
who sits behind the glass walls of his study overlooking the
lily garden . . . Here the hypothesis is lily-white, clear as
the author's conscience if he closes his accounts with human
nature . . . No future behind us, so let us move forward!
Progress could be the bridge back to barbarity . . .
New York. Edward awakes while dawn slumbers on. He plays an
air by Mozart. Tennis on the university court. He reflects on
thought's ability to transcend borders and barriers. Thumbs
through the New York Times. Writes his spirited column.
Curses an orientalist who guides a general to the weak spot
in an eastern woman's heart. Showers. Drinks his white
coffee. Picks out a suit with a dandy's elegance and calls on
the dawn to stop dawdling!
He walks on the wind. And, in the wind, he knows himself. No
four walls hem in the wind. And the wind is a compass for the
north in a foreign land.
He says: I come from that place. I come from here, and I am
neither here nor there. I have two names that come together
but pull apart. I have two languages, but I have forgotten
which is the language of my dreams. I have the English
language with its accommodating vocabulary to write in. And
another tongue drawn from celestial conversations with
Jerusalem. It has a silvery resonance, but rebels against my
imagination.
And your identity? Said I.
His response: Self-defence . . . Conferred on us at birth, in
the end it is we who fashion our identity, it is not
hereditary. I am manifold . . . Within me, my outer self
renewed. But I belong to the victim's interrogation.
Were I not from that place, I would have trained my heart to
raise metonymy's gazelle there . . .
So take your birthplace along wherever you go and be a
narcissist if need be.
- Exile, the outside world. Exile, the hidden world. Who
then are you between them?
- I do not introduce myself lest I lose myself. I am what I
am.
I am my other in harmonious duality between word and geste.
Were I a poet, I should have written:
I am two in one, like the swallow's wings.
And if spring is late coming, I am content to be its
harbinger!
He loves countries and leaves them. (Is the impossible
remote?) He loves to migrate towards everything. Travelling
freely between cultures, there is room for all who seek the
essence of man.
A margin moves forward and a centre retreats. The East is not
completely the East, nor the West, the West. Identity is
multifaceted.
It is neither a citadel nor is it absolute.
The metaphor slumbered on one bank of the river. Had it not
been for the pollution,
It would have embraced the other.
- Have you written your novel?
- I have tried . . . sought to find my image reflected in
distant women. But they have retreated into their fortified
night. And they have said: our universe does not depend on
words. No man will capture in words the woman, an enigma and
a dream. No woman will capture the man, symbol and star. No
love is like another; no night like another. Let us list
men's virtues and laugh!
- And what did you do?
- I laughed at my own absurdity and threw my novel away.
The thinker restrains the novelist's tale, while the
philosopher deconstructs the singer's roses.
He loves countries and leaves them: I am who I shall be and
become. I shall construct myself and choose my exile. My
exile is the background of the epic landscape. I defend the
need for poets of glory and reminiscence; I defend trees that
clothe the birds of home and exile, a moon still fit for a
love song, an idea shattered by its proponents' fragility and
a country borne off by legends.
- Is there anything you could return to?
- What awaits me draws me on and urges me . . . I have no
time to draw lines in the sand. But I can revisit the past
like strangers listening to the pastoral poem in the gloom of
the evening:
At the fountain, a young girl fills her jar with clouds'
tears. And she weeps and laughs at a bee that stung her heart
when it was time to leave.
Is love pain in the water or malady in the mist . . .'
(And so on, till the song draws to a close.)
- So you could suffer from nostalgia?
- Nostalgia for times to come. More distant, more elevated,
more distant still. My dream guides my steps and my vision
cradles my dream, curled like a cat, on my lap. It is reality
imagined, born of the will: we can change the chasm's
inevitability!
- And nostalgia for the past?
- That is only for the thinker who is anxious to understand
the fascination a foreigner feels for the medium of absence.
My own nostalgia is a struggle for a present that clings to
the future.
- Did you penetrate the past the day you visited the house,
your house, in Jerusalem's Talibiya district?
- Like a child afraid of his father, I was ready to hide in
my mother's bed. I tried to relive my birth, to follow the
trail of childhood across the roof of my old home, to run my
fingers over the skin of absence, to smell the perfume of
summer in the jasmine of the garden. But truth's hyena drove
me from a nostalgia that lurked, behind me, like a thief in
the shadows.
- Were you afraid, and of what?
- I cannot meet loss head on. Like the beggar, I stayed at
the door. Am I going to ask strangers who sleep in my bed for
permission to spend five minutes in my own home? Will I bow
respectfully to the people that occupy my dream of childhood?
Will they ask: who is this stranger who lacks discretion?
Will I be able just to speak of peace and war among victims
and the victims of victims, avoiding superfluous words and
asides? Will they tell me that two dreams cannot share a bed?
Neither he nor I could have done that.
But he is a reader who reflects on what poetry has to tell us
in times of disaster.
Blood
and blood
and blood
in your homeland
In my name and in yours, in the almond blossom, in the banana
skin, in the baby's milk, in the light and in the shade, in
the grain of wheat, in the salt jar. Consummate snipers reach
their targets.
Blood
blood
blood
This land is smaller than the blood of its children,
offerings placed on resurrection's doorstep. Is this land
blessed or baptised
In blood,
blood,
the blood
That neither prayers nor the sand can assuage? There is not
enough justice in the pages of the Holy Book to give the
martyrs the joy of walking freely across the clouds. Blood,
by day. Blood, by night. Blood in the words!
He says: the poem could embrace loss, a shaft of light
glinting from a guitar or a Christ mounted on a mare and
blood- spattered with elegant metaphors. What is beauty if
not the presence of truth in the form?
In a skyless world, the earth becomes a chasm. And the poem
is one of consolation's gifts, a quality of the winds, from
both south and north. Do not describe your wounds as the
camera sees them.
Cry out to make yourself heard and to know that you are still
alive and living, that life on this earth is still possible.
Invent hope for words. Create a cardinal point or a mirage
that prolongs hope and sing, for beauty is freedom.
I say: life defined by its antithesis, death . . . is no life
at all!
He replies: we shall live, even if life abandons us to our
fate. Let us be the wordsmiths whose words make their readers
eternal, as your extraordinary friend Ritsos might have said
. . .
He says: If I die before you, I shall leave you the
impossible task!
I ask: Is it a long way off?
He replies: A generation away.
I say: And if I die before you?
He replies: I shall console the mounts of Galilee and I shall
write: Beauty is merely the attainment of adequacy.' All
right! But don't forget that if I die before you, I shall
leave you the impossible task!
When I visited the new Sodom in the year 2002, he was
opposing the war of Sodom against the people of Babylon and
fighting cancer. The last epic hero, he defended Troy's right
to its share in the story.
Eagle on high,
Soaring,
Taking leave of the mountain tops,
For residing above Olympus
And the summits,
Brings ennui,
Farewell
Farewell, poetry of pain!
Translated from the French version of the original by Julie
Stoker
I stumbled upon his book "The Question of Palestine" when I was a sophmore in a hellish Sacramento high school. I'd never heard of him, and knew roughly of the history of the Palestinian cause, so I'm still not quite sure what drew me to it. I read that book like my life depended on it, searching every line, paragraph, and page for something I might have missed. I sat down and hand wrote a 20 page extra credit paper for my history class that I still keep in my stacks of paper hidden in various corners of my apartment. Edward Said was like my street lamp installed in a dark ally.
He lit many dark allies, drawing attention to the academy's Orientalist tradition and forcing the public and intelligencia to see, really see, the truth of the rights of Palestinians. He demanded the recognition of the human being and the universality of rights and dignity. He spoke of literature and poetry, war and peace, thought and transcendence, and, in the end, always spoke to the heart and mind of the human and the notion of universality. I haven't heard or read the word 'universality' since.
I was studying in Italy when my in-box was flooded with emails notifying me of his death. It must have been late afternoon or early evening when I sat down at the internet cafe, signed into my email account, and instantly broke down into tears. No one around me knew of him. I wore my kafiya that day, and was glad I took it with me. I should have hung a huge Palestinian flag out on top of the tower in the Piazza Del Campo.
Anyways, below is an homage to Edward Said (allah yar7ma)*, originally written in French in Le Monde. Overall, it's a lovely portrayal, but the last line is a little cheezy as first and last lines can be.
If there was a Said for every one of our countries, would the world be any different?
Salamat.
*God have mercy on him; Muslims say this when we state the name of someone who has passed away.
January 2005
HOMAGE TO EDWARD SAID
Counterpoint
by Mahmoud Darwish
NEW YORK. NOVEMBER. 5TH AVENUE.
Shards of light in a leaden sky.
In the shadows, I asked my foreign soul: is this city Babylon
or Sodom?
There, at the edge of an electric chasm sky high, I met
Edward thirty years ago.
The times were less impetuous.
Each said to the other:
If your past is your experience, make the future sense and
vision!
Let us move forward, towards our future, confident in
imagination's sincerity and the miracle of the grass.
I no longer remember whether we went to the cinema that
evening, but I heard old Indian braves call out to me: trust
neither the horse nor modernity.
No. No victim asks his executioner: if I were you and my
sword greater than my rose . . . would I have acted as you
have done?
That kind of question arouses the curiosity of the novelist
who sits behind the glass walls of his study overlooking the
lily garden . . . Here the hypothesis is lily-white, clear as
the author's conscience if he closes his accounts with human
nature . . . No future behind us, so let us move forward!
Progress could be the bridge back to barbarity . . .
New York. Edward awakes while dawn slumbers on. He plays an
air by Mozart. Tennis on the university court. He reflects on
thought's ability to transcend borders and barriers. Thumbs
through the New York Times. Writes his spirited column.
Curses an orientalist who guides a general to the weak spot
in an eastern woman's heart. Showers. Drinks his white
coffee. Picks out a suit with a dandy's elegance and calls on
the dawn to stop dawdling!
He walks on the wind. And, in the wind, he knows himself. No
four walls hem in the wind. And the wind is a compass for the
north in a foreign land.
He says: I come from that place. I come from here, and I am
neither here nor there. I have two names that come together
but pull apart. I have two languages, but I have forgotten
which is the language of my dreams. I have the English
language with its accommodating vocabulary to write in. And
another tongue drawn from celestial conversations with
Jerusalem. It has a silvery resonance, but rebels against my
imagination.
And your identity? Said I.
His response: Self-defence . . . Conferred on us at birth, in
the end it is we who fashion our identity, it is not
hereditary. I am manifold . . . Within me, my outer self
renewed. But I belong to the victim's interrogation.
Were I not from that place, I would have trained my heart to
raise metonymy's gazelle there . . .
So take your birthplace along wherever you go and be a
narcissist if need be.
- Exile, the outside world. Exile, the hidden world. Who
then are you between them?
- I do not introduce myself lest I lose myself. I am what I
am.
I am my other in harmonious duality between word and geste.
Were I a poet, I should have written:
I am two in one, like the swallow's wings.
And if spring is late coming, I am content to be its
harbinger!
He loves countries and leaves them. (Is the impossible
remote?) He loves to migrate towards everything. Travelling
freely between cultures, there is room for all who seek the
essence of man.
A margin moves forward and a centre retreats. The East is not
completely the East, nor the West, the West. Identity is
multifaceted.
It is neither a citadel nor is it absolute.
The metaphor slumbered on one bank of the river. Had it not
been for the pollution,
It would have embraced the other.
- Have you written your novel?
- I have tried . . . sought to find my image reflected in
distant women. But they have retreated into their fortified
night. And they have said: our universe does not depend on
words. No man will capture in words the woman, an enigma and
a dream. No woman will capture the man, symbol and star. No
love is like another; no night like another. Let us list
men's virtues and laugh!
- And what did you do?
- I laughed at my own absurdity and threw my novel away.
The thinker restrains the novelist's tale, while the
philosopher deconstructs the singer's roses.
He loves countries and leaves them: I am who I shall be and
become. I shall construct myself and choose my exile. My
exile is the background of the epic landscape. I defend the
need for poets of glory and reminiscence; I defend trees that
clothe the birds of home and exile, a moon still fit for a
love song, an idea shattered by its proponents' fragility and
a country borne off by legends.
- Is there anything you could return to?
- What awaits me draws me on and urges me . . . I have no
time to draw lines in the sand. But I can revisit the past
like strangers listening to the pastoral poem in the gloom of
the evening:
At the fountain, a young girl fills her jar with clouds'
tears. And she weeps and laughs at a bee that stung her heart
when it was time to leave.
Is love pain in the water or malady in the mist . . .'
(And so on, till the song draws to a close.)
- So you could suffer from nostalgia?
- Nostalgia for times to come. More distant, more elevated,
more distant still. My dream guides my steps and my vision
cradles my dream, curled like a cat, on my lap. It is reality
imagined, born of the will: we can change the chasm's
inevitability!
- And nostalgia for the past?
- That is only for the thinker who is anxious to understand
the fascination a foreigner feels for the medium of absence.
My own nostalgia is a struggle for a present that clings to
the future.
- Did you penetrate the past the day you visited the house,
your house, in Jerusalem's Talibiya district?
- Like a child afraid of his father, I was ready to hide in
my mother's bed. I tried to relive my birth, to follow the
trail of childhood across the roof of my old home, to run my
fingers over the skin of absence, to smell the perfume of
summer in the jasmine of the garden. But truth's hyena drove
me from a nostalgia that lurked, behind me, like a thief in
the shadows.
- Were you afraid, and of what?
- I cannot meet loss head on. Like the beggar, I stayed at
the door. Am I going to ask strangers who sleep in my bed for
permission to spend five minutes in my own home? Will I bow
respectfully to the people that occupy my dream of childhood?
Will they ask: who is this stranger who lacks discretion?
Will I be able just to speak of peace and war among victims
and the victims of victims, avoiding superfluous words and
asides? Will they tell me that two dreams cannot share a bed?
Neither he nor I could have done that.
But he is a reader who reflects on what poetry has to tell us
in times of disaster.
Blood
and blood
and blood
in your homeland
In my name and in yours, in the almond blossom, in the banana
skin, in the baby's milk, in the light and in the shade, in
the grain of wheat, in the salt jar. Consummate snipers reach
their targets.
Blood
blood
blood
This land is smaller than the blood of its children,
offerings placed on resurrection's doorstep. Is this land
blessed or baptised
In blood,
blood,
the blood
That neither prayers nor the sand can assuage? There is not
enough justice in the pages of the Holy Book to give the
martyrs the joy of walking freely across the clouds. Blood,
by day. Blood, by night. Blood in the words!
He says: the poem could embrace loss, a shaft of light
glinting from a guitar or a Christ mounted on a mare and
blood- spattered with elegant metaphors. What is beauty if
not the presence of truth in the form?
In a skyless world, the earth becomes a chasm. And the poem
is one of consolation's gifts, a quality of the winds, from
both south and north. Do not describe your wounds as the
camera sees them.
Cry out to make yourself heard and to know that you are still
alive and living, that life on this earth is still possible.
Invent hope for words. Create a cardinal point or a mirage
that prolongs hope and sing, for beauty is freedom.
I say: life defined by its antithesis, death . . . is no life
at all!
He replies: we shall live, even if life abandons us to our
fate. Let us be the wordsmiths whose words make their readers
eternal, as your extraordinary friend Ritsos might have said
. . .
He says: If I die before you, I shall leave you the
impossible task!
I ask: Is it a long way off?
He replies: A generation away.
I say: And if I die before you?
He replies: I shall console the mounts of Galilee and I shall
write: Beauty is merely the attainment of adequacy.' All
right! But don't forget that if I die before you, I shall
leave you the impossible task!
When I visited the new Sodom in the year 2002, he was
opposing the war of Sodom against the people of Babylon and
fighting cancer. The last epic hero, he defended Troy's right
to its share in the story.
Eagle on high,
Soaring,
Taking leave of the mountain tops,
For residing above Olympus
And the summits,
Brings ennui,
Farewell
Farewell, poetry of pain!
Translated from the French version of the original by Julie
Stoker
posted by smokey spice at 4:20 PM
1 Comments:
Thanks smokeyspice...I always take my kefiyeh with me..I loved Edward Said and was introduced to him quite late in my life in 2001..But I also cried at Yasser Arafats death ( unbelievable as it may sound !).
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